American Football

Oop... so... was busy with wintry holiday shenanigans that I forgot to blog for a month :/

Here we are, blog number 32, hope to hit one hundred eventually but one posting at a time...

Oh, and happy new year!

At this moment both the Rams and Patriots are lined up for SB53 (under some questionable play-calling), so keep you're Feb 3rd open for a game that many people won't be watching lol -- in all seriousness, I hope the Rams win if for any other reason that the Patriots don't.

About this far into January some other things are taking shape, mainly those few people who are still going to the gym three weeks into New Year's Resolutions. Congrats!

It can be upsetting at times, picking up new and healthy habits just to watch them fall flat. I know from personal experience how demoralizing it can feel. "Is something wrong with me? Is my will really that weak?" Probably... but hope isn't lost.

In order to strengthen any muscle, pressure needs to be applied. Like that one time I was able to bench press the bar, a surmountable amount of force was applied and pain was the resulting factor. The following day, pain was still the factor but at a different degree. Going through the motions, adding more weight, and finally through conquering my body's pleas for mercy I was able to gain the 5lbs of muscle mass I had hoped for (or was that just cafeteria food?)

Either way, I was now able to confirm that mind can defeat matter, and that takeaway was all the motivation needed to conquer the next piece of gym equipment (or study habit, or hectic sleep-schedule).

Currently my most pressing issue has been anxiety, and this too shall pass. Everyone feel's stress in life, and each person react's differently to said stress. For me, over the past two months, this has taken the form of panic attacks and reclusiveness (neither of which are healthy!) In order to break the negative cycle, I have had to make some uncomfortable choices -- be social and get out of the dorm room.

Now, being the extrovert that I am, this normally wouldn't be an issue.

Normally.

But.

The human mind is one indistinguishable puzzle that's no fun and all the fun simultaneously (continues to study psychology just to realize that everyone has conflicting theories and we're all going insane).

So... by my reaching out and socializing against the comfort of my brain I have begun the process to reset my emotional parameters, as terrifying as it feels. And here we are.

To the readers who've made it this far, I hope you enjoy theses blogs as much as I do.

If you have any questions or concerns related to the posts, novels or website, feel free to shoot an email this way! As I focus on school and my practicum these next four months I hope to keep this website (and Ignite's sequel) at the forefront of my mind.

Hit the gym, go outside, meet someone new!