Personal Debrief

Ahh... technology.

My browser has been struggling recently so had to switch over; at first I thought my 5-year-old Lenovo was throwing in the towel but after some research it was Chrome that was outdated and virus-logged (did wonders for me up until this week).

So here we are on a Tuesday evening, blogging.

Tonight's topic is about NO.

I've been told by multiple people this season that saying "No" to someone can be a really good thing. My opportunistic brain has struggled to understand the meaning behind the mentality -- if someone invites me over to their place for food or games, heck yeah! Why would anyone want to slow down; life is short!

But burnout.

I would wonder why I struggled soooooooooo much (over recent months) with anxiety and panic attacks, and the answer was as clear as it was painful:

Couldn't

Turn

Down

Invites

Evey event, every gathering, I ended up participating in. I've adjusted to constantly having things to do, looking at an ever-full calendar on my wall and phone.

As I lie down at night sleep evades me thanks to a racing, regretful mind swirling with inconsistencies and irrational fears. Because burnout.

So there's that.

Oh! I've discovered the importance of alone time -- even an extrovert needs to pull away from the action every once in a while. Alone time can be sitting in a car with the music off, just you and your thoughts. It helps to think where I've been, where I'm at, and where I plan to be in the future. Taking a few minutes to weave reality together can not only be therapeutic but also provide confidence.

It can be fun to blindly go on an adventure, but when you have one life to live, those blind escapades shouldn't be a priority route.

I heard a quote that says: "If you fail to plan, you plan to fail."

...will often recall that message when I start my day in the early morning (@7am) LOL.

Been working with refugee children at a center in north Dallas every Tuesday and Thursday. I love kids, seriously, I feel like I'm one of them when we're playing games -- and at the same time I feel so distant from them as well. Disciplining those you care for is difficult, through working with the children I feel some of the pressures my parents must have felt while disciplining me.

I am so grateful for my parents, I don't think there's a word in Webster's big book that can describe my appreciation for the two of them.

I know not everyone has one or both parents in their lives, so if you do make sure you treat them well!