Resolution or Revolution

It's been a long time since I wrote the original 49 posts -- but all these years after college I find myself needing a new (old) outlet again. Blogging!

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I've been doing some deeper searches into who humans are at the core, what makes us tick and why...

During my research and readings I've found that we are much more selfish than we'd like to admit, myself included. So many times throughout the week I end up feeling anxious, stressed and sometimes panicked over the simplest/smallest issues. Example: I'll wake up in the morning and feel stressed, nervous stomach and fast heartrate -- and it's not even 7am yet!

~The areas of your greatest fear are the places in which you trust God the least~

I heard this in a sermon a few months back and it's really stuck with me. There must be a lot of places where I don't trust God because I've been struggling with a LOT of fears these past few years. Do I really trust God so little? Must be; so how do I realign my trust?

Make the resolution.

When we make a resolve we are making a firm decision to do something -- a concrete action by choice. This season my resolution has been to get adequate sleep and eat more (I'm never really hungry nor tired so these are things I must push towards). On top of the rest and dietary changes, I've also made it a goal to read books everyday to strengthen the brain God gave me. There are some really good reads out there! (Recommendations: The Meaning of Marriage by Timothy Keller & Gods At War by Kyle Idleman.)

After you're set on a new course of action you then have to revolt against the old mindsets. Stir up a personal revolution. I was out East with a friend of mine who does speaking engagements at high-schools. During our brunch I fell into a sudden panic attack, something my friend pinpointed quickly as he struggled with them years ago. I felt overwhelming fear for no reason (like honestly, I'm on vacation!) and my buddy told me to calm down and drink water, letting the mind breathe. Once we got back to the car, I decided things we're going to start changing with how I perceived the world -- since perspective is the main component to our reactions.

A revolution was stirring, but not against the symptoms, but against the underlying cause of the symptoms: Pride and Fear. These two antagonists lay siege to the mental faculties of every person on earth, just to differing degrees, and I was no longer interested in fighting this particular battle. So I made a battle plan for the breakup.

Today I can say I'm 50% less fearful and 100% more positive for the future -- and this is all in part to finding the core issue and praying against them, coupled alongside accountability and positive influences.

As I go about these daily postings, things will get real and raw, as the body of Christ should be -- so I'm excited to go into depth on the tricks and tips God's revealing to me each day, as well as fun stories explaining the growth that's occurring!